No More Pity Party

I found myself sinking back into a very bad habit. I was pissed off at the world and have myself a good ole pity party. For the most part this has not been the best year for me............in a few different ways
I have had a broken engagement and the relationship eventually died which makes me very sad. We are still friends but some hurts can just never be forgotten on both ends. I still love him but I am not in love with him anymore. For the 1st time since I was 18 I am not in a realtionship anymore and for a while I was handling it quite well. For the last couple of weeks for some reason it has hit me very hard that I am actually alone and this kind of depressed me. Don't get me wrong, for the most part I am loving being single and doing what I want and when I want. It has made me think that maybe it is not the other person the relationship who has problems but there is something wrong with me and I am just not able to be in one...........
Then there are times when it is very lonely and I am just learning how to deal with that on a day to day basis. I know that I am going to get through this but it is just going to take me sometime.
Two of my close friends at work have gone on to other places and that has kind of put my world in a tailspin as I am very close to them and not really a big fan of change. We are still in touch but I just miss how it used to be. I know that I will get over that too.
I am really just having myself a good ole pity party yet I don't want to attend anymore!!!!

Due to some financial issues (or you could say lack of funding, I am having to postpone going to school).......I really think in the light of things that this is the straw that broke the camels back....

I have a wonderful family whom I love more than life and they feel the same way about me. I have a great group of diverse friends that I know I can always count on whether it be an ear to lend me to vent, a shoulder to cry on, make me laugh so hard that I can't catch my breath or just be there when I need them. They say what does not kills us makes us stronger and I believe that!!!

I know that all of this is just self pity and I have some friends whose problems are way worse than mine and I need to just get over all of this petty crap. I really have a blessed life and am a very lucky person for I have the love of God, an awesome family and amazing friends who show me how to be a better person by just being in my life!!!